bleh, but I'm back.

So looking back I find it both sad and amusing that 2 posts ago is titled "WOOHOO 2012" and the very next..."FRUSTRATED"
I think the latter still sums it up.  There isn't much positive I can say, however I am happy that our agency has at least tried to advocate for those waiting.  Not sure it will make much difference.
I wish I could say that I have been able to keep it off my mind, but that would be a lie.  Patience is not an asset I can claim, and if you know you KNOW that. GRRRRRR, not sure what else would be appropriate to say in this forum.   I will say the last several weeks have proven to be harder than anything else I have been through, and I am not many people can truly understand that.

Ok, other topics!  First, I am working on a small distraction.  Adoption can be EXPENSIVE, and ours is one that is expensive.  A very kind friend of mine has volunteered to do a little "fundraiser" for our adoption.  I am truly grateful!  So, I am working out the details and I hope that people who read this will join in supoprting us, while getting something great for themselves too!!!  So stay tuned for that!

Other distractions????  OH YEAH, we have 3 other amazing, beautiful kids. And provide a distraction they do.  I am looking forward to more CARS 2 video games, a trip to see teh Disney Princesses live and experiencing the world through the eyes of my stubborn, strong-willed 2 year old. 

S and I are even planning a little weekend escape to celebrate the anniversary of our first date. 

In other news, my job has been challenging and I am loving it.  People never cease to amaze me!
I also attended a retirement recognition for an amazing man who I have had the privledge to work with for several years.  It reminds me to be grateful for the every moment everyday, for the opportunities I have been given and for the people I encounter. 

So through all the feelings of frustration, anger, sadness, inpatience I will strive to be grateful, positive, happy, thankful and joyful.  It will get better, we will get there.  HE WILL COME HOME!
(let's just hope it is before I am 100)  Really  I just want to have him here before he is 2.

patience, patience, patience....breathing in...

Frustrated

Not much else to say.

2012!!!! WOOHOO

Happy New year to All! 
We celebrated New Years Eve like people much older than we truly are.  We sat around and watched the "Chik Fil A" Bowl, and we ate & ate.  We had a splash of sparkling grape juice and then off to bed!  We were blessed to celebrate with some of our dearest friends and P even tried to stay up to "watch the ball fall."  He didn't make it.  I woke him up, but he doesn't remember it today!
More importantly New Years is the most special holiday to us, it is P's birthday.  His 5th to be exact.  I always struggle when his birthday comes around.  Not sure if it is b/c he is my 1st boy, or because his birthday marks the beginning of all kinds of new experiences, but it is bittersweet.  This year is no different.  Where did the last 5 years go????  And while I wish he was always that tiny baby boy, too small for a newborn diaper, I love to see the kind boy he has become. 

AND January 1 2012 is something special.  Emigration paperwork will begin to move again in S. Korea.  We are FINALLY getting there.

I am grateful for days like today to help pass the time.  Boy, P is really an amazing boy, and I feel so proud to call him mine.  Now some gratuitous Superhero party pictures for your entertainment. 
(this is P's 1st "kid" party, & I think it was a hit!)

Happy Birthday Buddy!