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Thursday, October 20, 2011

UPDATE!!!!

Today I shall focus on M, which I feel like I haven't done enough of.  We got 4 new pictures today from his 14 month well boy visit, and a progress report.  Man, he gets cuter and cuter and CUTER every time we get pictures.  In one he is pointing at the camera, I love those pictures, as if they understand fully that they are the subject being captured.
In the progress report it says there are MORE pictures taken at the foster home that they will be sending!!  I am GIDDY!  I am so in love with that sweet face, I just go gaga every time we get new pictures.  And then I feel sad because I know it will be awhile til we get more, but this time it sounds like it might be sooner than normal!  We also have the cameras sitting waiting to be mailed off.  I now realize that he might not get this package until close to Christmas, so I might need to cram more in there!
So the progress report says some interesting things.  I.E. things that tell me he is meant to be a C.  He is still just barely walking, only a couple steps here and there.  Well around here, the C children ALL waiting until after 12 months to walk, T waiting until 14 months (too lazy to be bothered)! 2nd, he is independent, and gets angry when his FM tries to help him.  Well he and Buggy will certainly have that in common.  Now T, as stated above, is happy for others to do for her (wait on her royalty really) but the others are all about independence.  He like to sleep, 2 naps plus 9pm-6am...LIKE!  And he can throw a good tantrum....Greeaaat.  That is just what we need here, another tantrum thrower.  Really, I love it!  It means he does and will voice his opinion, and well the C family definitely all voice there opinion, ask anyone that knows us!
M isn't so little anymore.  He is over 21 pounds!  And boy that sweet, sweet face.

I have been asked a number of times from several people if we know when we will bring him home.  That isn't an easy question to answer.  I know he won't be home for Christmas (even though it is our only wish) and definitely not before the New Year. Our agency quotes "up to 14 months" after referral.  Our referral went to Korea March 28th, that means May 28th--ish.  I am hoping, wishing praying, pleading, begging that it is closer to 12 months, but realistically, 14 months.  I respect that.  He is worth the wait and, while I hate missing out on every second he isn't here, I know once he is home, the wait will be a distant memory. I hope that it will be much like childbirth, very painful, but once you have that sweet baby, you are willing to go through it again.
There are advantages to it still being many months away, and I try to focus on them when I am not pouting (see previous posts).  S can actually get around to learning Korean, like he wants to.  I can learn a couple words, which is about all I am capable of!  He is safe, healthy and loved where he is, getting exposed to Korea and it's culture, so we will use this time to learn the same.  T & my birthday is in May, so it would be an AMAZING birthday present to have him here, I get so excited thinking about that.  If it is late May, he will be here in time for summer, which will be an easier time for both S and I to be off, T will be out of school, and we can enjoy the beautiful outdoors that surrounds us where we live. 
So there is my "looking at the bright side of things" attitude.  As I told my SW, as long as he DOES come home, I will be happy.  As I have said a couple times, this is a HUGE lesson in patience for me, one that may slightly lack any.patience.at.all.
So YAY for updates, YAY for a safe foster family, YAY for our HS update (boo for more $$, but it means we are getting there).  YAY for fall, my favorite season.  YAY for a beautiful, beautiful baby that one day will snuggle next to me on the couch while I write on here!

Friday, October 14, 2011

October 15th

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